Darling I wish you were here...

Just one of those days when I dedicated a song to her cos I really miss her a lot :(

The Perfect Gown

A wedding isn't complete without the perfect gown. Every woman has dreamed about this day since she was a teen. They know exactly what they want and will never settle for anything less.

Amy too had the perfect gown she always wanted. But she could never find one. Since the last two days she has been visiting a lot of tailors and gown makers but has not been very happy with the work. Last night she was very sad and felt dejected. I never seen her so sad. I wished I was with her. I couldn't see her like this. So I thought I'll pray with her. She was surprised to hear that from me. But last night I prayed on the phone that, she would get exactly what she wanted, everything just the way she desired and at a great price too. For some reason, deep inside I felt my prayers were gonna be answered.

Amy called me today while she was shopping. She was super excited and happy. It was so evident from her voice. With a loud and squeaky voice she told me how she finally found her gown with the exact detailing she was looking for. It was so exciting to see her get so excited and happy. I am thankful to God, for he is so faithful to provide us even with these little materialistic desires of ours.

awwwwww :*

Disclaimer: The above picture has got nothing to do with our beautiful romantic relationship we share. It's purely fictional and any resemblances to any person or character is purely coincidental. I put there cos its funny.. lol

So last night we had a very cute moment. I was very busy the whole day and we never got to spend time talking to each other on the phone. We did text each other a couple of times, but didn't speak. So I hit the bed by 11pm when Amy texted me asking if she could call. I told her everyone was sleeping so I can't talk to her but I surely can text and so could chat. She requested just for 2 mins so she could wish me good night. And I was like, "aah.. alright."

She didn't sound too good. She sounded upset. So I asked her what was bothering her. She denied she was upset and made up excuses that she was missing her friends and Melbourne. After nearly ten minutes of asking her, she finally opened up. She told me in a very cute but sad tone, "We did not talk at all today and now when I wanna just hear your voice and wish you good night, you are making up excuses that everyone is sleeping.." Oh I can't tell you, how cute it was to hear that. Amy sometimes says some things that can totally bowl me over.. haha.. I know it sounds too sizzy.. but its Amy. I don't care if I do. I love her very much. And this was one of the cutest moments I ever had with her. So then I went to the kitchen and spend a good half hour with her. She was so happy and super excited. I really wish I was around. Would never miss the opportunity to grab her tight, kiss her and tell her how much I love her :)

Can't get better than this :)

Finally leaving 'God's own country' today for 'Aamchi Mumbai Changli'.. It's been one of the most beautiful vacations i have had in a long time.. I got engaged to beautiful girl, discovered my royal roots, tasted some delicious food from the North & South of Kerala, donated my blood to some promising mosquitoes who suck unto their bellies bust and die, enjoyed some awesome weather, discovered some new bugs, allowed some of them to bite me, some did without my consent.. Yeah all in all had a great time.. But can't wait to get back to Mumbai, the city that never sleeps. My home sweet home... :)

That was my status on FB today morning. I was quite excited about coming back to Mumbai. But I also was sad about leaving Amy. I knew I was gonna miss her bad. I was really missing her already. I just wished if I could hug her one last time before I left Kerala. She was gonna come to the Ernakulam station to bid me goodbye. I asked her if I could hug her before we see each other the last time for the year. And she was worried that our parents might find that awkward. So she politely declined though expressing that if he had a chance she would love that.

Now on the journey I was complaining to my mom about how these trains are so disgustingly dirty and that maybe I should cancel our train tickets (honeymoon) and get flight tickets instead. My mom thought I was being unrealistic & cribbing for no reason. Hence, she suggested that when we reach Ernakulam I could ask Amy to inspect the train and see if she finds it disgusting too. Mom suggested I cancel the tickets only if Amy finds it bad too. I texted Amy about this and she agreed.

When we reached Ernakulam, to my surprise Amy meets and greets my parents and my brother. But she never greeted me. I felt that quite strange. But 2 mintues later I asked her if she wanted to check the train and see how she felt about it. Now I was so engrossed in showing her around, that it completely slipped out of my mind that I was alone with Amy while our parents were standing outside the train on the platform. Right then Amy asked me, "Babe can I hug you?". I was sorta blank. I didn't know how to react. I didn't know if I should be embarrassed for letting a girl take the first step or just go with the flow and give her a hug. I chose the latter. haha... I just grabbed her so tight and we both gave each other a beautiful hug. Now I have hugged a lot of my girlfriends like a thousand times. And you feel nice, comforted, warm when you do that. But it's so different when you hug someone you love the most, and miss the most. It's the most amazing feeling ever!! and yeah my dad couldn't get any better than that :)

When the train left the station, she texted me that she loved me a lot and how she missed me. It was terrible. I have never missed someone like that in 7 years. I had sorta forgotten how it feels to miss someone. But now I had rediscovered how terrible it is.

Alright, suited up.. now what??

Just like the last two days, I did not sleep tonight either. I was up by 5 am and didn't know what to do. Today is the day I was getting officially engaged. I suited up and was ready by 9 am. We arrived at the venue by 10.30 am. Quite honestly I felt grand as I was escorted in my cousin's car to the venue with all the people waiting eagerly to have a glimpse of me. Well not for too long, the focus of their attention quickly changed to Amy, who had dressed up in a beautiful maroon saree. She looked absolutely stunning. I never thought that the engagement was sorta organized in a very grand way. Had it been known, we could have rehearsed our parts well. So we both were sort of clueless on what we are to do. Anyway skipping the details, it all went well and before we could realize what happened, we were engaged.

One thing that was quite stressful was to maintain a smiling face all throughout. We had about 250 guests for the engagement. I do not know how can we pull this off with 600 guests at the wedding reception. Finally we met with all the guests and proceeded for lunch. But that was the end. Before we could finish our lunch, the photographers hurried us into having a photo shoot done. It was a grueling one hour shoot. They made some do some embarrassing poses for the shoot. Most of them looked like a poster for an upcoming 'Mollywood' flick.

We finished the shoot by 3pm and immediately left home. I took my ring off (and kept it safe) the moment I reached home. I never thought I would get picked off for this.. lol. Charlie Brown took us out for a Cochin tour and dinner in the end. It was really nice. Charlie had come with his wife and Amy, whereas I came went with my brother. Amy was quick to find that my ring was gone from my finger. She was even more quick to point that to her brother. Surprisingly Charlie Brown was super cool about it. Phew!!

We didn't have an agenda so we went for a boat trip, followed by some shopping (window shopping for some) at a nearby mall and then lovely dinner at a Indo-Continental restaurant. It was the second best day in my whole trip so far and I know I am gonna miss it. Tomorrow I am going to be heading back home to the village, but I do not want to. I just wished I could linger in this city a lil longer.

Awwww... I will.. I willl... :)

The ring I proposed Amy with :)

Today was the BEST DAY EVER!!! hahaha.. I can't even settle down to tell you the whole story. Well the day began at 5am for me.. lol.. I thought Amy would know Cochin, as she is from here. But she doesn't know anything except for the marine drive here.. lol. So it was upto me. Thanks to Google, I began looking for some romantic locations in Cochin. I found many people directing to Fort Kochi (Cochin) for most of the romantic locations. I saw this beautiful waterfront restaurant named Arca Nova restaurant in the Fort House Hotel. It looked beautiful on their website. I made up my mind to take her to 'Arca Nova restaurant' in Fort Kochi. I studied the Cochin map so I knew how exactly I needed to get there.  So by 8am I was all set to take my lady out for a romantic lunch :)

I picked her up by about 11pm and we headed off to the Boat Jetty Ferry. Now when we went there, we were like friends. We did not even hold hands or hug each other. Even while we waited for the boat to arrive, which is about 30 mins, we did not even lay a finger on each other. We looked far from a couple.. haha.. I tried holding her hand by saying how tiny fingers she had, but that didn't last long.. lol..

So we got there finally, and she got a lil comfortable with me and began to slightly hold my hand on every alternate steps we walked.. haha.. still not totally comfortable with each other, we loved each other's company. Just to be walking with each other. Quite honestly, it was quite a bummer to see the waterfront side. It wasn't as grand and beautiful as I had seen on their website. The water was awfully dirty with all the rubbish floating on it. Amy didn't quite like it, neither did I. So the host showed us around to an indoor location, which was quite beautiful. We were the only Indian people there, everyone else were foreign nationals. We placed our order, and while were waiting, I got a moment when we were the only two people in the whole restaurant... Pretending like something bit me, I looked down below the table. Amy too joined me in searching for something she didn't know.. haha.. slowly I got down onto my knees and I proposed to her.. "Miss Amy Sparrows, will you marry me?". She was motionless.. she didn't utter a word. I asked her again.. she still was still.. I asked her, "Babe, yes or no?" and she was like, "omg!! definitely yes, but why did you do all of this.. omg!!" Then I put the ring on her finger, n kissed her. She was so adorable, she got so shy that she couldn't look at my face, and took a menu card lying nearby and covered her face. She said she was too shy to look at my face. It was the most adorable thing ever. Then she asked me to shift inside, got up from across me and sat besides me. She couldn't stop holding my hand.. I still don't understand the power of that one act, that made her so super comfortable with me, that she couldn't let go off my hand.

We had a wonderful meal, and headed off back to our base. This time we walked like a couple. We looked like a couple. It was so different from how we had walked in to this place. We had our fingers locked into each other's and our eyes fixed on each other pretty much most of the time. When we were waiting for the boat to arrive, she held me by the waist and rest her head on my chest. I, not being an experienced man with dating, took a while to reciprocate to that. It is an amazing feeling to be loved and when the love is expressed freely.. All through the boat ride, we couldn't take our hands off each other. It wasn't the same. All of a sudden we were super comfortable with each other, pretty much the same way we are on Skype.

We reached back to the Jetty by 4pm. I was already late by half hour. So I got a rickshaw and Amy got into it. The rickshaw driver was having a cup of tea so we had to wait until he finished it. I was standing outside the rickshaw, when Amy walked towards me and grabbed me gently by my shirt, looked straight into my eyes and told me, "I don't mind if we don't get home by 4pm." That was one of the best moments I had with her. I looked into her eyes as she was piercing into me. I felt like she was calling onto my heart, asking it to understand how she is longing to be with me. Amy has really beautiful eyes. Its' big and round.. and they are pierce into your soul, but in a good way. I just love looking into her eyes. Looking into her eyes tempt me to kiss her, but I haven't done that so far.. haha.. I politely turned her request down as I had promised her dad I would get her home by 4pm.

So like a good lad, I kept my word, brought Amy back him on time (actually late by 30 mins). Captain was quite happy that I kept my word. Charlie Brown and his wife too were in Cochin then and I got to meet them. It was nice meeting Charlie Brown in real. He is a lot different than how he appeared to be on the call with me.. haha.. It was really hard for me to say goodbye to Amy after such a wonderful day, but I had to leave. I called her up after I got home and We couldn't just stop telling each other how much we love and missed each other.. :)

Finally, our eyes meet..

The last few days have been pretty awful. I have been really frustrated about a lot of things especially how things aren't working out as I had planned it to. It's really annoying when nothing works out like how you intended it to be. I wanted to take Amy out for lunch on Friday, so I get my time alone with her, enough to propose to her and make her feel special. But she had not asked her dad yet and it was really annoying me. She was apparently waiting for the 'right moment'. It's been over 3 weeks and she was still waiting for the right moment. Finally out of frustration I called her dad yesterday. But her mom answered the phone. I told her how I would like to take Amy out for lunch, and if I had the permission to take her. Mom said she could ask Amy and Dad and get back to me. It was frustration again to see things not happening my way. What's worse is nothing was still certain. Anyway ten minutes after I finished my call with Mrs. Sparrows, Sir Captain called me. He asked if I had called him. I was too scared to ask him myself, but after gathering a lot guts I did ask him. I asked him, "Sir, would it be cool if I took Amy out for lunch? I wont take her for too long and would get her back by 4pm?". To my surprise the captain replied, "sure, you may but get her home by 4pm." Then he said how he loved it that I didn't do things on my own and that i was disciplined enough to ask his permission. I guess that' was the first good thing that happened on my trip so far.. :)

For some reason I knew, this was it. The beginning of all the good to come.. haha... and I was quite true about it. We (parents, bro n me) left to Cochin early today morning to The Captain's place. Now its been quite hot all this while, but it rained today. And the weather was simple splendid. It was cool and very pleasant. This totally made my day to begin with. I never felt so cheerful inside of me since I had landed in Kerala.. Reaching Cochin I saw it was nothing like I had imagined it to be. Cochin was sorta like Mumbai but a little less populated, with stinking rich people & their flashy cars, and the absolute abuse of lane discipline. For some reason the lane indiscipline didn't bother me much. I was quite fascinated by the fancy cars that it was flooded with. At one point I saw two Audi A8 driving parallel to each other with a BMW tagging behind them.

We got a little lost trying to find Captain's place, but managed to get there before 1.00pm just enough to make it to lunch time. Amy was waiting to see me for real and so was I. But when we did meet indeed, she was super nervous. haha... She was way prettier than I had seen her in her pics and on Skype. But she was so nervous that she spoke to everyone - my dad, mom & bro but except me. Her mom too told her how she has been waiting for me all this while, why not talk to me now? They made her sit besides me, but she was too shy to even last for 10 secs. Poor Amy, I found that super cute though. When, after lunch, I sneaked into a chair besides her, she got up and ran away from there. It was quite a funny sight. By 3pm my parents left back to their homeland but I decided to stay with her. Slowly she began to get comfortable with me and began talking to me. Soon she got all of her baby pics and began showing it to me. This was a nice moment, as we began to get comfortable to each other. Not comfortable enough to hand hands yet though. haha...

I left their place by about 8.30pm. I went to my cousin's place a little away from Captain's home. As soon as I reached my cousin's place, I called Amy. She looked like she was waiting for me to call. She said she missed me terribly. I joked with her, about how she never spoke to me the whole time I was with her but now she missed me. But this time when we spoke it was different. Since we had met each other, I had begin to like her more. :)

The day doesn't end there.. I realized that my brother in law is a musician too. And he plays both the keyboard and the guitar and had Yamaha Guitar &  Keyboard. My bro and I got super excited.. finally we got to play some guitar. We spend a couple of hours playing music. I played Amy's favorite song 'Nila Nila'. I even called Amy and sang the song to her.. haha.. All in all.. today was a wonderful day. Finally I feel I am indeed in God's own Country.

Spooky?? 

This might sound spooky but my ex girlfriend left me on 31st Oct 2005 and I met Amy for the first time on 1st Nov 2012. Do the math its exactly 7 Years. The Bible talks about seven as the number of completeness - On the 7 day he rested, The rainbow has 7 colors, Music has 7 notes, The 7 crystal stems, The 7 levels of periodicity in the Period table of the elements. So I believe its way of God making this relationship more fun and also by confirming that my wait is over and my Rebekah was here..Unbelievable? Believe it :P lol